Shield cage
My breath lies heavy
It’s like lead in my tired lungs.
I feel like if I was inside a labyrinth
With walls of mirror.
I look inside, afraid to see myself
And what is reflected is my life.
I wouldn’t see that, but I have to.
I lose myself, I drown, I grieve, I die. I’m not worth it.
my kindness is killing me.
My deceitful shield, fragile like paper
Wet by my tears when they find their way out.
I look strong but I’m not.
I’d like to appear impregnable
But I am… I don’t know how I am…
All I have inside can’t go out
I’m not able to show myself.
The crust protecting me grows harder,
And in spite of that I hurt myself ever more.
I’m looking for a motivation
Life becomes unbearable
I ever break myself down against the same things
And I can’t destroy them
You can hear my desperate yell
But my body doesn’t move.
I don’t want to have a proud and detached attitude
Because I die and despair inside,
I can’t stop the pain
Necrotizing my body
I know that this time too
I’ll let them empty me out
(I’d like to have the strength to care not,
To make things slip out of me
I’d like to feel nothing when it’s necessary
I’d like to protect and love myself.
I’d like to change my feelings,
The situations I live and the people I have around
When they stab my belly and kill me
Looking me not in the face )
It’s an illness,
A horrible beast living inside of me
Make me see a distorted image of reality
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